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  TEMPTATION

  A Bad Boy Romance

  By: Gabi Moore

  Table of Contents

  TEMPTATION – A Bad Boy Romance

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  TEMPTATION

  A Bad Boy Romance

  By Gabi Moore

  Chapter 1

  Ok, here it is, my confession: I’m a cheater.

  I know, I know, everybody is these days, right? What could be more ordinary than two people declaring undying love for one another and then losing interest 2.6 years later and breaking up once the whole sorry mess falls to pieces? It’s normal, isn’t it? It’s always the same: boy meets girl, boy and girl fall in love, boy meets another girl, previous girl cries and throws things at boy, boy says sorry…

  But you’ll have to believe me when I tell you that mine is no ordinary tale of deception. No, there’s nothing normal about my cheating story. You see, I cheated on my boyfriend… with my boyfriend. And if I’m honest, it was one of the best things I’ve ever done.

  Allow me to explain.

  Why did any of this happen the way it did? Well, it’s hard to say. Maybe it’s the fault of too many Disney princess movies during my formative years. Maybe I have what my asshole ex sneeringly called “high standards” that no man could possibly live up to. Maybe faulty hormones. I don’t know. But the state of things was this: I loved David, and David loved me. But we had made a promise to one another. And that means something.

  I know, if you’re like most people, you’ll think a no-sex-before-marriage agreement is old fashioned and a little sad. But hear me out. I wasn’t some idealistic child who submitted her boyfriend to years of blue balls. I wasn’t a tease or a prude. And David …well, lets just say he was on board, right from the beginning. Really.

  Sure, I had what are considered outdated sentiments. Instead of “dating” and gossiping about how far this one had gone with that one, I spent my puberty reading old Victorian romance novels, and placing heirloom rose cultivars into crystal vases I inherited from my grandmother. I grew my hair too long and was good with children. I was hopelessly out of fashion, and in more ways than even I knew at the time.

  My peer group’s obsession with sex baffled me at best, and I shrank from what seemed crude and ugly at the time. I wasn’t sappy though – cheap romance alone wasn’t good enough for me. My girlish heart craved something more than true love, more than perfect union. At the time I could see how people thought I was fusty and naïve, but I was, as I saw it, trying to cultivate something nobler. Something sublime. Sex was merely one star in a whole immense universe of love and significance I had created for myself.

  So, to get on with the story, David and I went to the same High School. He had written me a poem one day, smiled at me shyly and then scuttled off. With my overactive imagination, I filled in all the rest. Soon he was assigned the role of my fated love, my One, my soul mate and the sun around which all of my high-flown fantasies orbited.

  Surprisingly, he went with it. While other boys had balked at the fact that I reserved handholding till the third date, or that I expected the door to be held open for me, he not only seemed unbothered, but actively charmed. When I told him that singing to flowers made them grow faster or that you can only make good banana bread if you’re in a happy mood, he didn’t tease me, but only smiled and pecked my cheek.

  With a living, breathing focal point on which to pin my fairy tale, life became so much lovelier, like cupid himself had come down and smiled on us. There were stolen embraces, love letters scented with perfume, a daisy woven into a lock of hair, tentative fingers laced together… and promises. Lots of promises.

  David understood me. And his understanding was enough intimacy to last my sensitive soul a long, long time. He understood that I resisted sex not because I thought so little of it, but because I thought more highly of it than anything else in the world. In my fevered teenage brain, I believed nothing could be so momentous as melding your body to that of someone you loved, and I intended to relish that moment, to hang it far off on the horizon of “one day” where it would grow so ripe that by the time I was ready for it, the angels themselves would weep when I finally consummated my love.

  David and I nuzzled and whispered and giggled our way through most of High School. Sex wasn’t urgent, and there was always homework to do, besides. We were safe and warm and happy with each other, and sex was just some post dated check that we could always cash in later, when we felt like it.

  It was sweet. Sickly sweet.

  You can see where this is going, right?

  Chapter 2

  “Phosphorylation is such a nice word.”

  He looked up from his books at me. “It’s a nice word, but it doesn’t sound like what it is, you know? It’s sounds like how you describe mice running around in some dry leaves. Like, ‘the mice phosphorylated on the forest floor’… don’t you think?”

  He shrugged and returned his gaze to his book. Studying together was no big deal for us. David would come to my house or I would go to his, and we’d prep for exams or do our assignments in silence together. Next year, when college started, these moments might be more difficult to coordinate, so part of me relished hanging out like this now, while we still could. Something was wrong, though.

  “Everything ok?” I asked.

  “Violet, you asked me that five minutes ago, and my answer is the same as it was five minutes ago. There’s nothing wrong, ok?”

  He didn’t even make eye contact. This was bad. I slammed my biology textbook shut, perhaps a little too dramatically. He looked up at me again.

  The trouble with finding your soul mate, and I say this without any irony, is that you don’t really get too much practice having mature and respectful fights. David and I just didn’t fight. We didn’t really know how. Which made him sulking right now extra inconvenient.

  “Is this about before? About what I said?” I asked him, frustrated that no amount of staring at the top of his dusty blond head could make him look at me. He sighed deeply and closed his books too, perhaps with not enough drama

  “If you want to talk about it again, fine,” he said, “but there’s no point. You don’t want to. Cool. I got it. I won’t beg.”

  “I don’t want you to beg.”

  “Fine. And I’m not going to. What I want is for you to want to …and you don’t.”

  “That’s not true. I’m perfectly happy to do whatever it takes to-”

  “Ok, lets do it then.”

  “But—”

  “See? Call it what you like, that sounds like a no to me.”

  Lately, we hadn’t been agreeing much on what did and didn’t count as sex. We had had this disagreement at least four times in the last six months alone. H
e wanted oral sex, and me …well let’s just say I felt that that would a slope that was somewhat, uh, slippery.

  “David, I’ve explained this to you, it’s not saying no to you at all, believe me, I want to as much as you do…”

  “Then let’s do it.”

  “But …can’t we just kiss?”

  “Just?” He shot an accusatory eyebrow at me.

  He was right. It felt rotten offering him a kiss as some sort of consolation prize.

  I had always scoffed inwardly at girls who slept with boys just to win a little more of their attention, or moved faster than they wanted to just to keep an impatient guy from leaving. While the girls at our school were living out epic sagas of love and rejection in the course of a single evening of hooking up, while they courted and consummated and broke up literally overnight, I admit I always felt a little smug and that I was somehow immune. That I was on a different, more sophisticated timeline. But I looked at him again, and there was no denying it: he was getting impatient with me. Even my timeline had its limits, apparently.

  In the story of whimsy and romance I had already written for both of us, I had never foreseen this outcome, stupid as that may sound to some of you. Our promise was always something that made me feel safe and sure. Now, my boyfriend was hungry and irritable, and our promise hung there on the tree like a fruit that might rot and be inedible if left even for a day longer.

  A very ugly thought jumped into my mind – what if David and I became bored of each other? What if the promise of things to come wasn’t enough to fix things right here in the moment? I opened my book and tried to study again. ‘Phosphorylation’ suddenly seemed like a different word, now. An ugly, threatening word. Like the rustling of veils about to be pulled off.

  Chapter 3

  “Most girls swallow, everybody knows that,” she said.

  The other girls in my group of friends immediately nodded as if yes, they did of course know that, even though I could tell that many of them hadn’t considered this fact at all till Jess mentioned it.

  “And if he really likes the girl, his cum won’t taste so bad, that’s a fact,” she carried on.

  This last bit proved to be too much; Jess might be the most “experienced” girl in our group, but even she had trouble convincing us of some things.

  “That doesn’t make sense Jess. Like, his cum actually changes depending on how much he likes the girl?”

  Lizzy was the only other virgin in our group, besides me, but I like to think she was definitely the most clueless of us all. We didn’t know much, but we had managed to figure out a lot about the mysteries of sex right there on the lawn after school.

  “Exactly. I read it somewhere. He produces, like, more sugars in there if he likes the girl.”

  “Bullshit” I said.

  “Nah, it’s true.” Jess scowled at me, disappointed that I wasn’t fully appreciating that she had read it somewhere and that was the end of it. It was a romantic idea, sure, but I hated her having anything to do with it.

  “So, like, if he tastes bad and then all of a sudden he tastes good, then you know he’s falling in love with you.”

  I laughed. As if the time to determine whether a boy loved you or not was after his dick was already in your mouth.

  “Maybe if it tastes good and then suddenly doesn’t, that’s a sign that he’s cheating or he’s into some other girl.”

  Now, I like a good bit of whimsy myself, but never, I repeat never underestimate your standard teen girl’s endless ability to look for “signs”. There are signs that he likes you, signs that he doesn’t, omens in the way he kisses and secret symbols in the way he texts, and whether he does it 5 minutes after he reads your text or 15 can spell out a whole world of secrets and insinuations. Teen girls are experts at reading the hidden meanings in everything, especially the hidden meanings that don’t technically exist. The more direct methods elude us. Just talking to the damn guy, for example.

  “Anyway, all boys cheat eventually, everybody knows that” Jess continued. Her sermons about what the human male did and why seemed suspiciously full of information that everybody already knew.

  “That’s not true, not all boys cheat” I said, already deciding that I was done with idle chit chat for the afternoon. Surprisingly, they all turned to look at me with something like pity on their faces.

  “Oh my god, you guys, what?” I said.

  Jess pouted and put her hand on my knee.

  “Violet, don’t take this the wrong way, but it’s even worse in your case. All boys cheat eventually, but it’ll happen way sooner if you’re, you know…”

  “David and I are waiting. We both want to wait,” I said, standing up off the grass to leave.

  “Sure, of course. Hey, you’d be the right one to test this out for us – does his cum always taste the same or does it change ever?”

  I’m sure she thought she was helping, but the conversation had taken a weird turn. My cheeks flushed a little and I didn’t respond.

  “Oh my god, I’m so sorry, I didn’t know. You guys don’t even…?”

  I didn’t see why the universe was so hell-bent on getting me to fellate someone so desperately, but I was getting sick of it. I picked up my bag, cheeks feeling very hot all of a sudden.

  “I’ll see you guys later” I said to the group, and walked off quickly.

  They were wrong, of course, about everything, but at that moment, that didn’t strictly seem relevant.

  Chapter 4

  This is where the trouble starts.

  As it turns out, there are slippery slopes all around, and I went home that afternoon and fell down one myself, badly.

  I was messing around on my phone, trying to ignore a tiny niggle in my brain that just wouldn’t keep quiet. I thought about David and his lovely gentle eyes and saintly patience and the way he could always help when I didn’t understand my chemistry. I thought about his soft, dry voice and how funny he was when he did a Russian accent and how his spelling was so bad but in such a cute way.

  But curling all around this lovely image of him was something threatening; an amorphous blob of other girls, swooping in on him and carrying him off from me.

  I know, I was being pathetic.

  But I couldn’t stop. Every picture on Facebook was a possible mug shot of the adulteress who could any moment descend on my life and pluck away my boyfriend. I looked into the faces of pretty girls on vacations, random snaps, nothing sinister you’d think, but I looked at the arch of their eyebrows or the way they held themselves and wondered, is this a girl who could give him what he really wanted? What about this one?

  Cheating happens all the time, everybody knows that. And it could begin with a simple smile, just like this one, or a girl in a sundress in a picture like this. That’s all. I looked at the men, too. Where they all smiling liars? Had they all secretly cheated? Were they all just one hot-enough girl away from doing so?

  I was putting myself in a bad mood. I thought of David again, how we had never needed any formal contract; our promise was just already there, in all the little gifts, all our secret confessions, our long walks, how I could seemingly fold the whole of my body into his when we napped together. He would never cheat. Not my David.

  I sent him a message. An easy, frivolous message:

  Hello :) mwah! Enjoying the sunshine?

  Then I sat and waited. For 19 whole minutes, he didn’t reply. By the time the twentieth minute rolled by, I was so upset I had devised and fleshed out the details of a plan that would, once and for all, allow me to get to the root of whether all boys do in fact cheat eventually.

  My biology homework sat neglected on the table and I typed furiously.

  First I made a new Gmail account, using the name of a distant family friend of his I had met once but who he had fallen out with many years before. I found a dead Twitter account of hers and carefully cut and pasted a little avatar profile picture from one of her tweets. From this new account in her name, I started a new em
ail. “Hi! It’s been such a long time!” and then put his email into the recipient field.

  Then I sat back and looked, the full gravity of what I was doing apparent to me all at once. In case you were wondering, yes, it is what it looks like. I was writing an email to my boyfriend, pretending to be another girl.

  My mind worked for a few moments, trying to poke possible holes in my plan, places where I could be caught and the experiment would be ruined. I thought I was thinking things through carefully at the time, but in truth I had no idea where I was going with it. I imagined that the only way to settle the thing once and for all would be to catch him red handed; to lay a trap and know, for sure, that he would step around it, and keep the promise he made to me.

  Now, before we go any further, I just want to say that I know you’re judging me right now.

  You’re thinking I’m insecure, maybe, or a little crazy, or manipulative. There isn’t a name I didn’t call myself in the hours after I created that account, believe me. But it’s hard to explain just how much this doubt had a hold on me, and just how desperate I was to disprove it. I didn’t have high standards for boys, I had high standards for life; the idea that something as ugly as infidelity could exist in my world seemed to justify the extremes I was going to.

  See, you need to understand: I didn’t want to catch him doing anything. I wanted to prove to myself that even if someone tempted him, he would never dream of breaking my trust. Really, you have to believe me when I say that.

  Two hours had passed since my message and he still hadn’t yet replied. Usually, David responded to messages within a few minutes, especially at this time of day. We weren’t big texters, but I can honestly say that he never dawdled, never made me wait for a response.